I love the feeling of the raw power of my soul. It's been a while since I've felt that. I miss it. To utilize the whole power of one's soul is to harness the full extent of creation. Right now I don't feel like I'm doing that. Let me tell you about my soul.
My soul is amazing. It's origins are of God. It was created intentionally and with care. It loves and is loved. It's power is astonishing. Most of the time it sits in peace and love. It likes to chill and feel the world all around it. It doesn't really like computers. They take the focus from the world and confine it to a screen. It loves to be free. To speak and act in the power and for the glory of God. It loves people. It loves to inspire and be inspired. It loves to learn. It loves all things to do with God. It loves the Earth, and all majestic things. Mountains and campfires and stars are it's jam. It craves challenge and competition, but dislikes pride. All the glory be to God and His Son is it's opinion. It cries with the sorrowful and comforts the lonely. It is whole, it is honest, it is mighty.
The problem is that I don't always do what my soul calls me to do. It calls me to do mighty things, and sometimes I feel so little. Sometimes it calls me to something, and I absolutely know I am capable of doing that thing, but I consciously choose to turn down the call to greater life because of the difficulty of said task. My soul accepts that, but is not okay with it, and before long there is another great task to answer to. It's relentless. I love it. But it still makes me feel small sometimes, because when I do not finish what I set out to do, I feel weak. Feeling weak isn't really the problem though, because I can deal with weakness. It's when I feel incapable that I struggle. But my soul is right there, pushing me on, telling me I cannot quit, relentlessly and mercilessly forging me into the metaphorical diamond God wants me to become. So.. I learned to not tell my soul no, but instead keep my mind so preoccupied with other things so as to drown out the sound of my soul. And thus... My soul stopped talking. And with the departure of the relentless, conscious voice came the departure of it's conscious power.
Living a life fully conscious of what one is doing is important. Passive, unconscious action is so feeble in comparison to the power of focused, conscious, determined action. Action needs to be meaningful. It needs to have a purpose. Thus we come to a conclusion.
If I want to live life with the whole power of my soul behind my every action, I need to live accordingly. I need to do soul enlarging things. I need to serve. I need to meditate. I need to learn. I need to adventure. I need to journal. I need to be with inspiring people. I need to consciously choose to listen to my soul. I need to choose to overcome all challenges. I need to learn to apply myself to things which I find boring, and learn to make them interesting. I need to love. I need to pray. I need to consciously practice leadership and all it's virtues. I need to consciously study and make the effort to live God's word. I need to live intentionally.
Maybe most of all, I need to remember that it's okay to fail sometimes, but that failure is not a good excuse to quit. It is never okay to settle with mediocrity. Rise up, become great, and try again.
May God be with me as I strive to live consciously with the whole power of my soul, and may He guide you in your journey to the same end.
Love,
Dallin
