Saturday, December 20, 2014

Ready. Set. Go.

I feel like I'm going to explode.
There are so many directions my life is going - so many ways I am being pulled.
Dallin, you need to wrestle harder.
Dallin, you need to be a state champion.
Dallin, you need to get straight A's.
Dallin, you need to be righteous.
Dallin, you need to have a social life.
Dallin, you need to be an active member of your family.
Dallin, you need to fulfill all of your church callings.
Dallin, you have $10,000 to raise in the next year and a half for a mission.
Dallin, you need to get your Eagle Scout.
Dallin, you need to get your Duty to God award.
Dallin, you need to score high on the ACT.
Dallin, you need to do your chores.
Dallin, you are the oldest son; you must be the example.
Dallin, you need to find a job.
Dallin, you need to stay focused.
Dallin, you need to work harder.
Dallin, you need to build a business.
Dallin, your Dad is really sick.
Dallin, the nice man down the street whose lawn you mowed this summer just died.
Dallin, you're not good enough yet.
Dallin, you need to have more fun.
Dallin, you need to eat more healthily.
Dallin, you need to stop having fun and get to work.
Dallin, your house is making you sick.
Dallin, your friends live 1,000 miles away. Deal with it.
Dallin, you need to hunt because our family needs food.
Dallin, you're better than this. Man up.
Dallin, you need to take care of your little siblings.
Dallin, you need to keep your weight down for wrestling.
Dallin, you need to stay happy.
Dallin, you need to keep peace in your heart.
Dallin, you need to smile.
Dallin, you need to go on more dates.
Dallin, your posture is bad. Fix it.
Dallin, you're failing physics.
Dallin, you need to breathe.
Dallin, you need to sleep more.
Dallin, you need to go teach with the missionaries.
Dallin, you need to look nice.
Dallin, the government is taxing you now, just so you know.
Dallin... Dallin... Dallin.
Oh boy, Dallin. You've got a lot to do.
My friends, I'm not tired. I can do this. The Lord is my Shepherd.
But I do feel... Overwhelmed.
Guys, I'm 16. I'm still trying to figure out who I am and how the world works.
Hold up just a minute so that I can gather my bearings.
I can do all of this. I can handle it. Don't worry. I am strong enough. But geez. This stuff would be so much easier to deal with if it weren't all coming at me at once. I don't even care about the easiness of it all, my problem lies more in the fact that time is a limited commodity.
THERE ARE ONLY 24 HOURS IN A DAY, AND ONLY ABOUT 18 IN WHICH I AM AWAKE. I DON'T SLEEP ENOUGH AS IT IS ALREADY.
LEAVE ME ALONE.
It would be very beneficial for me if I would make more friends here in Malad. Other than wrestling, I don't ever hang out with people here, which basically means that the entirety of my social life is online or at wrestling. That gets lonely. Really lonely. Loneliness is painful.
I love my friends, but video chatting, phone calls, and facebook chat are not sufficient social life for a teenager. I need to get out and experience the world.
....And somehow figure out how to deal with all the things on that list up there.
Breathe, Dallin.
Have faith.
Put in everything you have, and the Lord will cover the rest.
Ready.
Set.
Go.

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

People are astounding. They really are. I just love people a lot.
Also, the human voice is incredible. The voice holds such great power.
God made the world awesome. :D